Thursday, June 17, 2010

Naked

I was born in a remote village of kerala. when i was in third grade my father had left for a posting in army and never came back, he wrote a letter once declaring that he had married another women in punjab. And he didnt intend to come back. When i had completed matriculation, i decided to go to some other place, a friend of mine joined me and we went to bombay as every body in those days did.

we looked for jobs together, but didnt find any we didnt had any intention to do any manual labour as in those days having done matriculation was not a bad deal. We slept in foot paths and ate less to save money, finally my find had given up and he decided to go back, but i stayed put. After 2 weeks i was running out of money, so i took up manual work. I worked at a construction site, and from there to a place where they were laying new rails. The railways needed casual labour then and slowly i managed to become a permanent employee. I now learned the language, got a hut in the slums. Then i was shifted to the parcel dept where i kept records of the incoming and out going parcels. I now earned 100 rs per month and was alloted a flat by the railways in the railway quarters. Which i shared with two other people taking 20 rupees each from them every month.

I used to frequently write letters to my mother but hadnt visited my village for all these years. I was now 30 and mother was worried about my getting married. So i had visited my village finally to find a bride for myself. I went to my friends house for a visit and there i saw his sister sumitra. I remembered her as a young girl she used to be a small kid when i was in 10th grade. To be frank i had fallen in love the moment i saw her.  I chatted with her father as i drank the watery tea offer by sumitra. It was impossible to drink the tea it tasted like boiled water with sugar in it. Her father asked if i were a station master, i said no i work at the parcel office. They had 8 daugters in their family. Sumitra behaved like a child and stood at the door listening to all the bombay stories that i was telling them, about multistoryed building, about the railways the airports and plane. As i was explaining to them the size of the aeroplane. Anil her brother entered. Uncle asked if he could find a job for him. It was easier for me, being in parcle dept i had contacts with companies and i could easily find job for anyone and had done so for many of the people i knew.

That night i dreamt about sumitra, her milky white skin, her big eyes, and thick black hair that touched her hips. She was a thin girl but had lucious lips and normal boobs. The next morning we had to go searching for a match for me, i and anil went looking for girls, we had to walk a lot. Most areas were not serviced by busses those days, had walked for a whole day, swam across rivers and walked thru jungles. We were in kind of a backward area in kerala. Electricity was not there, nobody had seen a tv, and a lucky few had seen cinemas in a big jhopadi made from dried coconot leaves. For the next few weeks saw different girls, nobody said no to me because i was in railway , a centeral government employee. But my heart was somewhere else, all the time i was thinking of sumitra.

Only two weeks had been left for my leave, so i had to decide now. I told to my mom and mama that i wanted to marry sumitra. They disagreed to my suggestion, they had said sumitra's father is in deep debt, he wont be able to give any dowry. You could easily find rich girls with good dowry. You will regret it whole your life. But i had persisted i stayed unmoved by their logic becaues i was thinking with my heart. Finally they gave up when i said i wont be marrying atall if not with sumitra. Sumitras parents were apprehencive because two of her older sisters are yet to be married. And sumitra had failed in her 10th exam and she had to give the exams again. But they couldnt have afforded to loose me, they couldnt have found a better match for her.

to be continued...

Monday, April 19, 2010

The Dentist and her last kiss




As she flips through her planner she realizes the last visit to her new psychiatrist  has been missed the last time, she calls her psychiatrist  and fixes an appointment for tomorrow. She ponders over the fact that even after changing more than 5 psychiatrists over the years, she hasn’t been able to derive any benefits.


It wasn’t always like that, during her studies at the dental college she was doing just fine, its only at the later stages, once she had started her clinic did she start having this problem. She hadn’t discussed her problem with any of her friends or relatives but she have had lots of discussion on forum boards and chatrooms with fellow dentists if they suffered from the same problem, she was amazed to know that this problem was something that only she had…


She had often wondered if leaving this field would be of any help, after taking suggestion from one of her psychiatrist she had taken a leave for a month, but that didn’t help her either…


She is already past her marriageable age, she is nearing 32 now and she has been unable to give reasons to her family as to why she doesn’t want to marry as of now. Her family had arranged meeting with many of prospective grooms she liked some of them and had gone out with them… she almost fell in love with one of them and would have married him in an instant if not for her problem…


Dr. Pooja Trivedi read the board on the door as she sat waiting for her chance to be let in, someone had drawn dots in the center of the two “oo” of pooja on the board which now looked like a pair of boobs, she felt the urge to draw a bra over it..


Dr: hi, how r u?


Smita: Fine Doc.


Dr: So.. whats the problem?


Smita: Actually I am a dentist, and after a year of my starting the clinic I have developed this problem, where I cant think of kissing someone..
I mean,,, after seeing all the dirty mouths and tongue.. I feel like puking at the thought of someone putting their tongue in my mouth..
It certainly has to do with the occupation that I am in, being a dentist and having to look into ppl’s mouth all the time I have developed this thing.. you know doc if you look thru microscrope, u can see all those small germs and stuff I cant just make my self to kiss some one…
The image of blood and yellow colored puss, flowing between the cavity comes to my mind.. that’s the reason I haven’t married yet, how could I say to my husband not to kiss.. neither had I any affair in past 1 year..
The last time I had affair with this guy, and we were having sex and I had managed to allow him to kiss, suddenly these images came to my mind and had puked all over him…
          She had this almost by heart after having told the same to all the psychiatrists over the years..


Dr: This is a very unique case that I m facing, I guess I will need to check some references before I could suggest you a treatment.. how about Monday next week..


As she left the doctor and made her way back to her car, she remembered how it was the most embarrassing moment of her life when she puked on him. She had ran from there never to return… He did try to call her.. but she never accepted his call and had shifted to a new city the very next morning… she was simply incapable of giving an answer..


As she continued to clean ppl’s mouth and mend their teeth, she thought of how long it had been that she had sex with someone… she remember how much she liked to kiss, and her bf’s in the past had complimented on her unusual ability to do so… she tried to recall when was the last time she kissed and from when did she got this repulsion towards kissing… all this thoughts about kissing and sex made her wet between the legs….


She ordered the receptionist to not send any more patients for 15 minutes and lunged for the vibrator in the last drawer.. 



P.S Dont laugh too much about the sketch, i know its childish but as a kid i always liked stories with illustrations, so drew this just as an after thought... just for the sake of those memories where i would spend hours looking at those drawings.. i still wish if todays novels too contained illustrations..

Sunday, March 28, 2010